Tuesday, November 09, 2021

Split

(Started in August 2021, and please beware, because it is probably controversial, daft, thick, thought-provoking [?], polemic, opinionated, wrong, true, interesting and dull all at once. It is also a long read, so be prepared with provisions and a rescue team just in case)

Morning folks - hope you are all a rootin' and a tootin'!
This post is an interesting one, because as I start typing I have no idea where I am going, and no idea what (if any) conclusion or usefulness will come out of it; however as is often the case, I find the keyboard to be as valuable as a psychiatrist's couch, so please bear with me whilst I set the slurry lorry on flick and get spattering all that lovely watery cowy goodness out the back whilst pootering along this particular field.

Putt, Putt Putt . . .
Splat, Splat, Splat . . .


© Phil Rogers Dundee,Leica M2,35mm f3.5 Summaron
Battling Glare, Darkness, Spotlights, 
Full Aperture And A Handheld One Second Exposure, 
The M2/Summaron  Combo Delivers The Goods . . . 
Weirdly.
Proudly Unchimped.


Me and t'missus settled down to watch something we'd recorded off BBC 4 a while back:
Rankine's Photography Challenge. 
I was excited; it isn't often photography is featured on TV, so this was somewhat of an event. 
I munched my Lidl's Digestive and sipped my cup of really rather strong coffee and was genuinely waiting to be wowed. 
Cooo!
Here were the candidates, all fresh faced and toting really not inconsiderably expensive cameras. 
There was a young lad describing how he'd sleep in carparks in order to catch a sunrise; an older bloke with PTSD who said that wildlife photography had saved his life.
I noticed there were others; a healthy mix of all genders, very woke and PC, but to be honest by this stage I'd mentally switched off. 
Why?
Well amongst the pontificating of:

"That's The ONE!" 

"I'd be proud of that!!"

"Get down on the ground and shoot it from there!!!"
 
"Coo, you don't get many of those to the pound!"

(Made that last one up actually) something in me had begun to feel really rather sick. 

There were about a billion shutter activations in the first fifteen minutes. 
Studio flashes like miniature atomic space battles
People 'chimping' left right and centre.
Kids putting themselves in shutterly inappropriate positions - the way people mishandle handguns in films (you know, loose wrist, pointed sideways) - camera as an extension of forearm.
It was snappy, overloaded and packed to the gunwhales with jaunty camera angles and semi-shouty presentation to make it look interesting, and sadly, like two Cokes plus a kilo of candy-floss plus several spins on The Sickener, this fairground ride made me feel the way I always feel at fairs:

Queasy with a capital Q.

So I turned to the missus and said:

'Can we watch something else?'

And that was a shame, it really was, because these people were buzzing with photography
They were truly enthused.
To coin a certain Mancunian phrase from decades ago, they were:

Mad For It.

I wished them well, bade them good luck and with a heavy heart and a sick bucket, switched to something else.

The "something else" was a program which is still in my head.
It was a BBC documentary about Lee Miller
What an extraordinary life, however it was her contact prints from the liberation of Dachau and Buchenwald which left a mark. Though not shown closely, what she said in the frames taken with her Rolleiflex said oceans more than a million digital spray jobs. 
And then, the fact that said experience made her pack away all her negatives and prints and not talk about it for years, speaks volumes about how much of herself she put into taking those photographs.
And also how much those photographs took out of her.
You can find out more about her here.

The following night, just because, we watched a documentary about Ansel
To say the guy was driven, would be a slight. 
These days you'd probably say he had OCD.
It came as no surprise that the huge channeling of human spirit, energy and sheer effort that went into the taking of every negative and the making of every print, came about as a result of methodical obsession
I believe this could only ever have been achieved with film and paper. 
He would never have been able to internally and externally transition the piece from "score to orchestra"' (negative to print) with some photoshop moves and an inkjet printer. 
Absolutely no way José.
To watch him dodging and burning was like watching the poetry of great dance or, dare I say it, football. 
It was transfixing, assured and magical all at once. 
A master class in craft skills and second nature.
It was definitely not the nurdling around of a mouse and cursor and ordering some 1's and 0's to: 
"Do THAT!"
It was not some old geezer checking his screen after every shot.

I thought about it and was so stunned by the apparent dissolve between these masters and what passes for photography in this digital age that I had to investigate further.

It will come as no surprise that You Tube is a tremendous source of old photographic documentaries.
Name the crafts-person (gotta be PC y'know) from a bygone age and you'll probably find something about them on there in some form.
From the classic Parkie-style interview, to decent overviews. 
And it is weird because you'll see the overlaps too - great photographers who have gone over to the Light (room) side like it means little to them.
Yet I truly feel something has been lost, and in that loss lies a blackhole that is at the centre of current photography:

The photographer as printmaker.

Bill Brandt (BBC Master Photographers) was a revelation to me. 
I only really knew Bill from a handful of photographs, but in this programme there were countless great images - so stylistic and austere, yet better than anything I have seen produced in 'modern' times.
To paraphrase a conversation in the programme:

Interviewer: "Mr. Brandt, you always do your own printing don't you?"
BB: "Oh yes."
Interviewer: "It is very important to do one's own printing?"
BB: "Yes, definitely, very important, yes . . . because I change pictures completely in the darkroom . . . most of the work is done in the darkroom . . . "


© Bill Brandt Estate


André Kertész? The poet who wasn't technical enough for the American Photography Scene (apparently).
Whilst enamoured with polaroids (technically geeky I suppose) at the end of his life, he produced numerous beautiful images which were all the more perfect for their imperfections. 
I couldn't imagine him chimping at his Canon's screen - he knew exactly what the photograph he had taken would look like. How's that for confidence and skill? 
The post-digital world of perfect, everything in focus from 3" to infinity and then HDR'd to the hilt, would I think have left him cold.
Look at this.


© André Kertész Estate



It truly is exquisite in colour, composition and form. 
A simple sculpture and mirror in his apartment and a piece of Polaroid film.
OK, the smelly wet stage of printmaking was taken away (although remember the 'orrible caustic stuff you use to get with Polaroids . . hmmm) but it is still a print and besides, he'd earned his stripes for decades.
The colours on the Polaroid are ageing in a way like the patina on a piece of Bronze Age metalwork - it is beautiful.

Delving deeper and randomly, I came across a documentary about the British photojournalist Tim Page.
A young man, leaves home at 17; travelling he picks up a camera and gets somehow caught up in Vietnam! 
It is an old BBC Arena called "Tim Page - Mentioned In Despatches"
Unlike other war photographers I have seen, who have dealt with the aftermath in more stoic ways, Tim (in the documentary) seemed to be that same young man fresh from combat, frozen in time, back in civi-street, recovering from debilitating war injuries, trying hard to find something to hold onto to keep him from drowning in the downright ordinariness of 'normal' life. 
He finds some solace in photographing an RAF camp filled with Vietnamese Boat People - there he truly looks at home. 
In his local Charrington pub, quaffing a pint of Charrington's Best Bitter (or so it looked) and smoking a fag, he looked pensive, evaluative; to be frank, out of sorts as they say.
In the documentary he replies to a question (in a Q&A session) about carrying a gun, and explains, that he never really did because guns are heavy, especially when you are carrying 4 cameras, 6 lenses and 50 rolls of film.
50 rolls - 12 or 1800 images as if your life depended on it. 
Finite. 
They had better count.


© Tim Page
© Tim Page


And man did they count. 
Look at the above - one image that sums up the human cost of war. No corpses, but the young man's demenour says more than anything I have ever seen.
If it were digital, there'd be screeds of images, the scene would have been sprayed, broadcast live to a news feed, looked at once and probably forgotten.
And yet here, Tim's skill and eye have rendered the cost, visible on one perfect frame of film; one perfect print.
That's photography. 
He took pictures like he was never sure whether he'd be coming back; fearless. 
Negatives, slides.
I found his images incredibly hard to look at, and yet, to paraphrase him:

". . . there is a lot of Asian softness in them."

You should watch it.
His website is here.

I could go on about the documentaries, but I won't - you owe it to yourself to find them.
It isn't hard.
The above is the merest skirting of the subject though - get looking and thinking.

Dipping on further and looking at my small collection of books, I came to the conclusion that it is the finite quality of traditional photography which defines it

You take a picture, process it, print it, file it. 
It is a one-off artefact - even manipulated via multiple negatives (a la, say, Julius Shulman's astonishingly beautiful architectural photographs) and all the work done in a darkroom to bring it to completion.
If you have never encoutered Shulman and you love black and white (and buildings) you owe it to yourself to seek them out - they're really fantastic.


© Julius Shulman Estate


This was apparently a composite of three negatives, nevertheless it is wonderful. 
The skill involved at all stages to get to the final print is breathtakingly complex.
The printer's skill has not been outsourced to a computer.

The print becomes the full stop on the image. 

The image defines the moment.

Yet I don't think it's really like that anymore.
You might well disagree with me, but to my mind it really isn't.

Have a break - have a Kit Kat.


Aaah, that's better!

I understand there are many concerned and committed photographers out there taking important pictures and I have nothing but respect for them, but the digital rendering is to my mind just convenience. 
It is the 'norm'. 
Everybody else is doing it so why don't we?
You possibly even have little choice with editors and picture people on your back wanting something yesterday.
You can whizz that important image around the world in nano-seconds. 
There is no waiting whilst you send your films back to an ever-awake processing department.
There is no wait whilst you close the door on your darkroom and sweat.
The screen has become the pseudo-print, but rather than that print being put aside in a pile, or brandished in a breathless run to show someone, your image is now a collection of part-remembered photons in your mind's eye. 
Scrolled by contemporaries . . .
In the words of Alex Harvey:

"N. E. X. T. . . Neeeeexxxt!"

And it isn't just to do with how your precious image is stored and presented either; film and digital, obviously they are both utterly different, but to tie things in with my original ride on The Sickener from the top of this 'ere page, it's the sheer ease with which everything can be done.

There used to be an expression 'kicking against the pricks' - whilst the usual interpretation is about authority, I have always thought of it as something that ties in with art. 
Art is struggle.
Photography used to be a struggle.

To my mind though, in ALL creative pursuits, struggle can be beneficial

You strive to do better.

I remember once walking for miles, taking many (so I believed) fine photographs, only for said photographs to be rendered null and void by expired developer. 
It is a thing you only do once. 
It informed me. 
It made me a more careful craftsman.

With digital, you no longer have that. 
You check every single bloody image
Make sure it is perfect on the spot. Just watch the news!
You delete those that you don't like and yet, to quote Tim Page:

"Every day is an assignment. Every picture you shoot, even be it an idle snap; I'm using the word snap, in a sorta very loose context.       
The snap is gonna be valuable."

Snaps are gone with digital - eradicated by the monkey-move and the editorial thumb.

You could argue that the plethora of idle phone pointing that goes on, is the snap.
Well yes, I can see how you come to that, except they're not really, simply because they only exist on a screen. 
They will never  be gripped and looked at again; beery, smoky, greasy fingers will no longer leave their mark. Spitty crumbs of laughter will not mar their perfection.
(As an aside I'll draw your attention to The Anonymous Project - a laudable collection of old slides - their like will never be seen again.)
In my family, we still sometimes drag out prints and snaps from decades ago and laugh and talk and reminisce - it is a wonderful, unexpected and oft overlooked aspect of being a (semi-modern) human.
Who would have thought, when photography was first being developed and people had prints made for relatives, as keep-sakes, records of their lives, that those simple (yet vastly complex) pieces of time would come to define their lives?
Identity was established; some kind of social grace was incurred - all dolled up in your Sunday Best, and thence on to the snap, the wonderful delineation of humankind in all its incredible variety.





Look at at the above - a chance physical find whilst doing some tidying. 
That's me in a photo-booth 40 years ago! 
A close relative to Kertész' polaroids, technology wise. 
It exists in the world. 
It isn't a collection of data lost on some hard-drive, or more likely, deleted as no longer relevant.


Can you see where I am going?
Far from furthering an art-form I love; far from moving it forward, I feel that creatively and archaeologically, digital has pretty much killed 'photography' (as I know it) stone dead.
Cuddle up with that phone and scroll through all those pictures - oh can I see that one with the rubber chicken? 
Oh shit, where the heck is it? 
Och God I can't be arsed . . . . 

But then maybe that is just me. 
A rank amateur living on the East coast of a very small country - what do I know? 
I'll bet most people disagree with me. 
But I look around (a lot); I trust my eyes and my observation of quality and bog-standard snappery from ages past, and I see little now that surprises or impresses or pleases me.
What a feckin' B.O.F. eh!

And then there was a pause during which yer author rubbed his chin and thunked.

Re-reading the above a month or two later, I decided I was being too polemical, too pontificating and too downright opionionated, so I decided to put some distance between me and 'it' and see how I felt a while later.

So, a month or so later:

I feel that what I wrote makes me sound like an arse.
What right have I to pass judgement on one of the world's most popular hobbies?
How can I stand here and say that truth is no longer what it used to be? 
You could argue that photographically truth was never what it was.
I can totally see where you are coming from. 
And yet, I can't quite put the way I am feeling about the current state of photography into words. 
Maybe it has always been thus. 
Millions of images, with maybe one in hundreds of thousands that makes you go:

'OH!'

There currently seems to be no end to the massed ranks of clamour; of images made for pleasure, purpose, or mostly, so it seems, just because you can
The digital image knows no boundaries, and I don't mean in the creative sense, I mean it in the sense that it is an ever-expanding frontier of data assembled into pictures. 
There is no physical limit simply because you don't really need to think like that anymore. 
You are not going into a combat situation with 50 rolls of film. 
You are not limited by the physical length of a roll.
The sky is the limit, and even then  . . .

Even the most careful digi-photographers I know complain endlessly about the sheer amount of stuff they have. 
It is archived and filed and amassed on hard drives or clouds, and it sits there by the myriad, consuming energy in a pointless waste of storage, because nothing will ever happen to photo #15 of the 300 you took of your children playing ball. 
You really won't make that nice picture of a daisy (in macro-mode) into a nice picture for your partner. 
IT IS FACT - YOU SIMPLY WON'T.

They say that traditional photography was environmentally unfriendly in its use of chemicals and resources, but I conject that digital photography is far more unfriendly simply in its power usage. 
Not only that but the traditional photograph impacts environment relatively quickly: a release of noxious chemicals, the results filed away and delved into occasionally; but that is it, the results are yours. Of course you have to factor in the silver mining and plastic production, but counter that with rare earth metals in every camera battery, the plastics in every SD card. 
And you've got to think about the trillions of digital images stored on servers; all drawing energy for their storage whether viewed or not, usually not. 
Some are printed, but they're still stored on physically ultimately fragile devices like hard drives or flash media or SD cards - future landfill.
Of course on the other hand they could also (unwisely) only be stored on cloud storage, where they are entirely at the behest (unpaid, or peppercorn-rent guests as it were) of digital flop-houses. 
An uncertain future! For should owners of said digital flop-houses maybe start charging considerably more, because of power costs, because of hunger for more dosh, for whatever reason, what then happens to a visual history of the latter half of the twentieth, early part of the twenty-first century? 

Yep: 

"Oh that old picture, nah, not going to pay for that." 

"I've got another 30 of the kids, forget about that one." 

Look how truly fragile this digital world really is.

I know we could sit and argue this till the cows come home - maybe you should come around sometime and we could head to the pub.
All of the above reads like it was written by someone who at a certain time of life has become thoroughly entrenched in their thinking and has no wish to look over the parapet. 
Strangely, I wouldn't blame you for thinking so, but also, I wouldn't count myself as one of those.
I am open to argument, but I also know what I like and what I think, and if you are from 'the other side' as it were, my salutations to you - I am not taking a pop, just providing a different slant on what you'll see elsewhere. Hopefully it will make you think about the physical/un-physical fragility of the modern world.

To be honest, my bias towards so-called 'traditional' photography is as firmly entrenched as an old wellie in a huge pool of cow shit. 

You might be able to extract me, but it would be incredibly messy for both of us

Best let entrenched boots lie, eh?





To round things off, the above is a perfect example of why, like Tim Page says, the snap matters.
This was a 'snap' with a Hasselblad SWC/M.
The light was sort of like that - heavy cloud cover and a brief bit of liquid sunshine hitting the path making the stones really stand out. 
I did print the sides down slightly (in a poor fashion) but on the whole it was pretty much like that.
It has sat as a scrap in my darkroom for a year or so. I never ditched it, just used it for setting print borders.
Now I come to look at it properly, I like it.
Had it been digital I would probably have deleted it at the time.
Not saying, just saying . . . .

As I finish, I'd like to say that really, I know none of you, however if you are a printmaker, I tip my tifter to you - you're keeping something vital alive, and if you don't run a darkroom but get other people to make prints from your negatives, I tip my hat to you too, because you're producing something physical.

If you're a squirter (sorry - that's my own nomenclature) well at least you are printing, but as far as I am concerned, it really isn't the same. The skill set is vastly different. 
This being said it doesn't NOT make you a photographer, it's just a shame that the world of modern photography has been skewed away from something that was always its beating heart - THE DARKROOM.

If all you ever view is screens, think again - it is worth the effort to try and change that. Buy a modern Polaroid camera and go and have fun - it will transform the way you feel about making images, and the Polaroids will probably outlast you as well - something for future times. A present from the past.

That's it - thank you for reading once again.
Take care, be safe and watch out for the normal people.







Wednesday, October 13, 2021

Flotsam

Hi folks, yes I know, slapped legs and so on - I HAVE been remiss, but maybe time off can be quite a good thing.

FB has always been an 'occasional' as they used to call magazine-type things back in ye anciente dayes of printing - albeit this year it has been very much so.

The reasons for my tardiness were detailed in earlier posts, but hey, look, I haven't stopped; I still look at who is reading this and whilst riddled with guilt and wringing my hands, think:

"Ooooh - I must get some more FB done."

So there, I am slowly moving forward, with the emphasis on slowly.




© Phil Rogers Dundee,Hasselblad 500 C/M,Hasselblad 150mm CF Sonnar,
Aftermath Of A Winter's Storm



Anyway, I surprised myself recently and actually spent a whole afternoon (wet and windy, with squall and some sun) printing

It was sheer heaven actually. 

Just 5x7" RC prints, all popped in the newly-gifted Leitz easel - a thing of great joy and comfort for reasons I don't understand - a Beard is better - but that being said it is so darn simple just to plop a bit or paper in there and go. 

It's beautifully made too; a little bit corroded in places, but is solid. 

It holds the paper well - none of this lifting of the border edge setters, or paper slipping underneath them as often happens with the Beard - it's just slide it in and go.


I was printing some results from recent walks.


"Wot? We fort you hadn't been takin' no fotograffs?!"


Well, I haven't, at least not seriously (as in going out to actively seek them) however, I will, these days, load a 35mm camera (in this case the M2 with 35mm Summaron) and just carry it with me on weekend constitutionals with t'missus. 


As my Dad used to say:


"The things you see when you haven't got your gun."


It applies to cameras too.


So there we were, a strollin' along, looking at fings and generally having a very nice time, when I noticed something.

This was probably one of the lowest tides I'd ever seen on the Tay, and really if I'd been paying attention I'd have spotted earlier that there seems to be a newish Dundee ritual of chucking what look like perfectly good bikes in the river.

We'd passed at least another two before I started noticing them - it took time for my brain to process things - I'd never make a good sports photographer.

So here's two of them - they'd probably make a really nice series, but remember if you're here and start doing them, I've got first dibs, right?




© Phil Rogers Dundee,Leica M2,Leitz 35mm f3.5 Summaron,
Bike 1


© Phil Rogers Dundee,Leica M2,Leitz 35mm f3.5 Summaron,
Bike 2


I was struck by the yucky, seaweedy, muddy contrast against the hard angularity of the bikes and it brought to mind a picture I had taken about 4 or 5 years back in the aftermath of an incredible Winter's storm in the Grampians.



© Phil Rogers Dundee,Hasselblad 500 C/M,Hasselblad 150mm CF Sonnar,
Aftermath Of A Winter's Storm



Understandably, this just looks like a pile of wood and stones, but to understand how it became so sculptural, one has to get the lie of the land right. 
This was taken at the point where a tributary of the Whitewater runs into it. 
To get to this point, the waters gather themselves from a mountainous plateau of peat bog and hard rock and gullies.
The height of the plateau averages around 2500-3000 feet above sea level; it is a vast, mostly featureless water-gathering area.
The rains saturate the land; it is a place of storm, sun, wind, but rarely if ever 'low' water levels.
Everything then descends: both underground and overground.
It falls through deep-cut gullies and channels; it runs beneath the moss and hillsides, giving the traveler on a clear and sunny day the feeling that the earth is forever in motion and life cannot end.
Here and there the run-offs join and co-join and force their amassings into deeper gullies of rock and boulder, Scot's Pine and impenetrable brush. 
And then, by pool and bend, the gathering puts a brake on itself and becomes a feeder, neither loch nor burn but something inbetween, where a deep pool forms and becomes the final point of exit into the river. 
It was at this final point that I took this photograph.

The weirdest thing about this is that about 150 metres upstream there's a stalker's bridge.
It is so old and rickety, that it would be easy for the burn that runs underneath to destroy it utterly and without thought, were it in spate. 
The flotsam here though had not come from the gullies above that bridge - there was too much and it was all too big; so I can only surmise that we're looking at such a force of rain falling, concentrated into the space of about 150 metres, that it was strong enough to bring this lower stretch to some form of extremis.
Strong enough to move considerable quantities of trees and rocks and deposit them as if they were nothing.
Such is the power of our planet. 
Respect it.

The photograph was taken with the Hasselblad 500C/M and the humble 150mm Sonnar - a truly remarkable lens and your cheapest option with Hassie lenses. 
It is the out of focus qualities coupled with the incredible detail that I like best about this photograph. 
And it is also easy to see why a 150mm Sonnar is probably the best Hasselblad lens for portraiture - I think the aperture was about f5.6.
Film was Ilford FP4 (developed in Pyrocat-HD) and I was on a tripod - no, not me, the camera.

And that's it folks - briefer than a tight-fitting pair of Y-Fronts.


Nature eh - who'd have thought it.


Take care and till next time, remember:


Pease Pudding Hot

Pease Pudding Cold

Pease Pudding In The Pot

Ugh!


Actually, this being said, I haven't had Pease Pudding since about 1973 whilst staying at my Grans. I bet I'd love it these days.

Keep taking the pills.

H.




Sunday, August 22, 2021

The Perils Of Vanity

Morning folks - how are you all? It's been a while I know, but them's the uncertain times we live in!

Anyway, today's post is a salutary tale of a face-off between gut feelings and caution and a hang-it-all-why-not-throw-caution-to-the-wind attitude.
Oh yus, it doesn't get more intense than that. 

Like an episode of Looney Tunes with two angels, one on each shoulder, I battled with myself, until,  backed up by some goading and encouragement from friends and family, I capitulated.
It wasn't entirely unconsidered, but all the same, it was highly unusual for me.

And, as if I hadn't expected it, at its bitter end lay a bottom line that was a waste of the equivalent of roughly 5 rolls of FP4 money and a sour (entirely self-inflicted) taste, rather like eating a couple of bulbs of raw garlic and then going straight to bed.
What, you've never done that? Goodness me, what a sheltered life you have led!
 
On a positive note, it was also a welcome validation to myself that art (sic) can often be a largely pointless (but thoroughly enjoyable) exercise, and that I shouldn't expect any back-slapping or champagne corks from said engagement in it.

If you proceed further please bear in mind this blog is its own wee country and any views expressed within should be taken with a pinch of salt anyway.





So there I was, with an idea in my head and some really (so I thought . . really?) not bad photographs. They'd been gathered over a couple of years and after quite some time spent editing and thinning and reassessing and beard stroking and bum scratching and gallons of coffee, I got the herd down to seven images.

Why seven?

Ah well. It's that masked banditeer, that siren of dreams!

El Potty!

QUE?

Well Manuel, wait whilst I slap you around the back of the head and poke your eye with my thumb, El Potty, El Presidente, Channel 9!

Oh OK, when I go off onto one like this it is always (in my head) a mix of Dance Commander (by The Electric Six) and anything on Channel 9 courtesy of The Fast Show.

El Potty, is actually LPOTY, which, is actually an acronym of that fantasy land of fame: 

Landscape Photographer Of The Year.

So y'see,  the title of this blog is correct - The Perils Of Vanity.

I have to say kudos to the organisation - the whole process from cradle to grave is exceptionally smooth - it is easy to register, pay your money, upload your (albeit really small) thumbnail images, add the necessary attributes, write a bit about yourself, bask in the glow that you've actually done something and then sit back and await the Herald Angels with their trumpets, who are going to come down and hang about your house, drinking beer and smoking tabs, and then, when the message finally comes from the Gods of Landscape, they'll grab those horns and proclaim:

"Hark, all ye with eyes and ears, for they are here! 
Great Images, worthy only of The Second Coming Of St. Ansel await your attention. 
Come forth in great multitude and gaze in awe at their wonders!"

Or something like that, but the batards pissed off and hung about somewhere else . . .

Anyway, these are the really small thumbnails I submitted.

They were resized to about 1.5MB each - I do have massive scans of them too, but of course, being scans they're really not doing justice to the full-on print experience . . . but they're OK.


Hasselblad SWC/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Abandoned A-Frame


Hasselblad SWC/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Ancient Path


Hasselblad SWC/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Dawn Woods


Hasselblad 500 C/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Disused Railway Cutting


Hasselblad 500 C/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Flooded Path


Hasselblad SWC/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Pre-Christian Sacred Site


Hasselblad SWC/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Ritual Place


Hasselblad 500 C/M, Phil Rogers, Dundee
Rocks, Moss, Wood Sorrel

I entered them (funnily enough) in the Black and White Competition, which (from what I can see) largely seems to be slanted to that rather strange thing Digital B&W

I've often thought that was a peculiar one - you have a camera that can make a, what?, anywhere between 10 and 50+ megapixel image in colour and then you footer around and try to balance the software to make something that looks like it might have been made on film and printed in a darkroom on paper. 

It's about a thousand times easier to actually print an image the old way (as long as you do have access to a darkroom) and you know what, even bog standard, vin-ordinaire prints look pretty decent. 
When you get up into the heady realms of experienced printing then things become a tad more intensive, but they are still well within the bounds of being able to be done by ANYONE with a negative and some time on their hands
It's cheaper too (believe it or not) if you're going to be handling things, making prints and shoving your grubby thumbprints left, right and centre on an actual physical thing - if you don't believe me, go and have a look at the cost of 'professional' monochrome inks for inkjet printers - it is truly 100% shocking.

Anyway, I diverge. 
The 'we'll notify you' date passed and I was left with a sour taste in my mouth - worra BABY!
I suppose I should have known that competitions are vanity exercises anyway, but all the same, when you're beavering away at something like this and genuinely think you have a feel for Mother Nature, Atmosphere and Landscape In General, there's a bit of you that sort of hopes that after all these years  (a not inconsiderable 40) someone somewhere, might somehow quite like your stuff.
But it was not to be. 
I heard nothing, and threw my toys out of the pram, resulting in a solid 4 months of camera neglect. 

Really stupid dontcha think, but I guess in some vain way I was looking for validation of me and my snaps.

I am sure you'll be the same as me - you photograph because you enjoy it, but somewhere at the back of your most private thoughts there's a little bit of attention craving associated with our hobby. 
What if, someone, somewhere, went:

 I really like that

And sure, we'll get it from contemporaries and friends and in the case of this 'ere blog, you, my readers. I've always appreciated people's comments, but still some mad part of me craves more. 
Hence my folly in entering. 
And folly is the correct word. 

Why on earth should it matter to me (or indeed you) what people think? 

I've always been avowed that any artistic (sic) pursuit has to be about personal satisfaction first and then anything else (champagne, canapés, back-slapping, tipped nods) that follows is a bonus. 
But for some reason the dark cloud overtook me and there I was, £25 handed over to LPOTY and Associates and a sour taste in my mouth. 
Incidentally, my images were (on the site) in the range of entry numbers 36,000-ish. 
So that's 36,000 submissions from people all craving the same thing - obviously the actual number of entrants will be less as you're allowed a maximum number of images, however that is an awful lot of landscape wannabees.

 . . . Hmmmm, things that make you go hmmmm . . .

Anyway, enough of that - it sounds very sour on my behalf.
If I can say something positive about my rejection (sob, sob) it is that it has made me sit and think long and hard about this. 
And I have come to the conclusion, that I was right all along:

If I like it, that's fine and if anyone else does, well that's fine too, and if they don't well that's their choice - it's like water off a duck's back.

Why do I need validation from anyone, and especially from a bunch of 'experts' who mostly I have never heard of?
 
Madness indeed.

There is a coda to this, and I was going to include a nice little video of me setting fire to The Making Of Landscape Photographs. It's a decent book, but not my cup of tea as to what makes a good landscape photograph.
It was given to me by a compadre from Scottish Photographers as he no longer had any use for it - venting my ire seemed a good thing at the time (none of that bottling up of angst for me!) but down the line, I think its current state is more preferable - chewed by a really lovely dog called Bailey. 





The baby in me would say "Well done Bailey", however, to quote the old TV advert tagline for stout:

 "Like The Murphys, I'm Not Bitter".

I actually prefer Guiness these days so I am off to dip my Farley's Rusk into a nice cool pint of the Black Stuff.

TTFN - and remember, please keep taking photographs that please you and you alone.

Saturday, June 19, 2021

The River Of Time

Morning folks - hope you are all a rootin' and a tootin'!

As per normal at the moment not a lot has happened photographically as (incredibly) I am still refurbing windows - oh for a cave with a single entrance, or a nice low-lying Scottish butt'n'ben cottage!

Long time readers may also remember that exactly a year ago I developed a PVD (Posterior Vitreous Detachment) in one eye swiftly followed by one in the other - this mad swirliness is a weird thing and I am still waiting for my brain to catch up and deal with the blurs as a matter of course. 

"You'll be amazed," the optician told me, "it'll change overnight." 

Well, I am still waiting and it goes from semi-clarity to an early morning pre-pot-of-tea fog, which is both dispiriting and debilitating. 
It does (eventually!) clear though and I find the clarity of my eyesight pretty damn good considering my age, but all the same it would be nice to sweep it under the table and get on with things.

Of course, allied this with a major window refurb (11 windows and 3 doors!) and you have a recipe for very little done on the photographic front.
It's not that I can't, it's more that I find it hard to justify spending time on something that is hardly vital.

This being said, what price does one put on mental happiness, enjoyment of life and light and a sense that one is trying to stretch one's creativity in a positive and life-affirming way?

They're just photographs!


Phil Rogers, Nikon F2, 50mm f1.4 Nikkor
The River Of Time


I've had the above negative and print for about 10 years - the data written on the back of the print states:

Adox Vario Classic
Grade 3 - 40M
36 Sec, f16
4 extra at edges
29/01/2011
Dektol

The negative was taken at a wedding by me, on TMX400 with my trusty Nikon F2 with an old pre-Ai 50mm f1.4 lens. They're largely discounted as a decent lens these days, but I love the character of mine.

Anyway, I've never known what to do with it, until now.
Happenstance (oh how I love that word) and a good filing system have helped me find something that seems sort of appropriate to the subject matter in hand.

To-wit (no, not you, Twit) I've had a good haul of coal delivered and fired up the steam-powered Scheephausian Time Machine to travel back decades, beyond when many of you were born. 
So grab yer Demob Suit and get the Brylcreem on, we're heading back to 1940's Britain (courtesy of my Mother and Fathers' letters).

It was/is a hell of a responsibility I can tell you and yet in dealing with them it has made me think that the photographs we're producing now (whilst we still can, before digital everything overtakes us) might (if carefully printed, annotated, archivally stored AND if they survive) provide some illumination into our lives, to someone further down the line.


Phil Rogers, Dundee
70 Year Old Archival System 1


70 Year Old Archival System 2


It was utterly remarkable to me, to read my parents' letters. 
My mother was 23, my father 28, they were young-ish people involved in the greatest human conflagration there has ever been. 
And yet here they were, not Mum and Dad as I knew them from my youth, but people, with all the hopes and fears, joys and passion all humans feel no matter the era.
I was lucky enough to be able to hear them, committed to time via. the portal of a letter.

Even after the initial surprise and joy, their voices stayed with me.
It was hard work - no really, it was!
I carefully scanned and carefully filed all 183 letters of remarkably thin, yet robust, wartime paper. 
I laughed and cried and chuckled. 

From January 1942 until May 1943, at times they were exchanging three letters a week each! 
They ended their correspondance because they got married; Mum preferring my Dad's company to that of a rather officious Matriachal system in the hospital; my Dad was sick to death of the constant bus visits and cycling . . 
You wouldn't believe how well-run Britain's wartime public transport was - remarkable, and besides the everyday warp and weft of wartime life, other things surfaced.

My father's dry humour came to life again 40+ years after his death. His comments made me laugh and also realise just what an influence he has had on me (though I knew it not at the time).
My mother's concerns were remarkably career-based and bang-on modern; they were quite astounding when one put them into the context of the times. 
In short, this young woman surprised me!
I desperately yearned to meet with them again, but they are long gone, cast over the edge into black eternity.

So the letters were a surprise; a found treasure and a gift from time and the cosmos.
They could quite easily have been tossed out decades ago or lost in removals. 
That neither mice nor insect affected them was all the more surprising, stored as they were in a crumbling paper folder, in an open tea-chest, in a loft - well, two lofts actually. 
There's nothing archival about that.
It was like finding a diamond in the middle of a field - the field being the vast open spaces of ones life, where stuff happens, but is inconsequential.

Time is a curious thing, the moment passes and is gone; the joke, the comment, the joy and pain, passed by in an endless rush to the end of things - arrow-like. 
That is the way it seems when you are young. 
Once done it cannot be undone, and on the whole, this is a true and finite definition.

Time is a fatal cliff edge and each thing in your life is cast over that edge where it hurtles for all time, never reaching an end.
So that makes the creation of photographs (or the discovery of a bundle of letters) all the more remarkable, for they have taken time and made it substance.

Pieces of your life - where you were; how you were feeling; what you wore; how you looked, and deeper: what interested you; what your eye valued; how you thought a photograph should look; what you felt it should contain - they are frozen in time.
If you use film and make prints on silver gelatin paper, you are creating little boats of the substance of THE NOW to send off on a voyage to an unknown end
Rather like the great explorers of history, your prints are sailing off to a distant horizon which we have never seen and will never see.

With luck there is a chance that they might be (to quote Kenneth Williams' remarkable Rambling Syd Rumpo):

" . . . passed down from father to son, 'til the 'andle dropped off"

If fate and chance are on their side it is quite possible that 100 or more years in the future (if stability isn't cast asunder by global process) someone, somewhere could be looking at your stuff!

(I was going to use the word 'work', but as I have said before, it isn't really 'work'; that is such a hand-wringingly awful art-speak word, that it is banned from FB).

Your stuff could be an eye onto a time. 
It doesn't have to document strife or alarmes, it can just be a snapshot of the things that please you in life, a reflection of your nature.
You, are going to die, but you could also live on.
I find that wonderful.

Whilst I was doing all this (well actually scraping paint, up a ladder, with a heat-gun, safety glasses steamed, hoodie soaked from a heavy hail shower) I tried to quantify the value of what I had and the value of anything really, but particularly creative stuff *
I had always known how special the letters were after their discovery by me in my Mum's loft in 2009, but I had been wary of delving in.
After all, who knew what skeletons might be uncovered? 
Fortunately there were none, but the weight of responsibility to my parents' memory hung heavy and I knew I had to do something to preserve their (albeit small) legacy.

So, some one hundred pounds lighter, I have two Secol Archival Storage boxes and 200 8x10 Archival Polyester sleeves. 
Basically this is the same stuff museums use - it is incredibly well-made in a sort of un-slick, British way. 
There's no fancy-pants packaging, it is as utilitarian as a 1940's wardrobe.
It is far different to my normal American-sourced negative storage.

Yes, I could have just bunged them in another paper folder and filed them away, but no, I feel that what I have uncovered is not just an important social document (as well as a love story) it is a thing that might tell any future generations of our line, that somewhere back in time, at an important turning point in world history, two people (their ancestors) addressed just a tiny bit of what it is to be human.
It's a great weight and responsibility that hopefully they, whoever they are in the future, might care to shoulder.
The letters might well transcend time, so museum-grade storage it is.

I have also decided that I am going to include a note to the future from me detailing what I have done, a bit about us (in the here and now) and also will include a memory stick with the letters scanned as pdfs, just in case.
I am hoping to source a photograph of their wedding day too - my brother has it somewhere. 
My mother looked beautiful and glamorous, my father slick, boney and handsome - together they looked (the photo, if I remember rightly, is a sort of snapped walking shot on a 6x9 negative) very 1940's Hollywood, albeit in a very British make-do and mend way (though that doesn't belittle anything, 'make do' was green before green was ever thought of.)
Mum's dress material (as far as I can work out) was sourced from the black market and stitched by her friend's mother. 
Their wedding was kept secret from the Sister and Matron on her ward at the hospital, for fear of it jeopardising her career chances. See what I mean, it gives me the thrill of discovery again even just thinking about that. 

So with a thought to the future I am going to push this little Pooh Stick out into the current and wish it luck as it travels further on down The River Of Time.
I'll never know how far it will go, I can only wish it luck.

And that is it folks - thank you as always for reading - I am sure normal service will be resumed shortly, but until then keep going to the clinic and tell them Sheephouse sent ya!


* And this is the definition I came up with:

Art (sic) can be something that had no intrinsic value until someone decided to purchase it; whereupon, it became something that someone valued enough to buy and (down the line) becomes (possibly, but not always) something that other people might not necessarily like, but decide they have to get, because it has this new intrinsic value and might possibly be a good investment.


Monday, May 31, 2021

It's Deeper Than We Thought

Morning folks!
Well it has been a while again hasn't it.
There I was at the start of the year saying I am going to do as much as possible photographically, and here I am, at around 4.30AM nearing the Summer Solstice, sat here typing when in reality I should be out there being inspired.


Phil Rogers, Dundee, Hasselblad 500C/M, 150mm Sonnar
Inspiration Doesn't Live Here Any More


Ah, sweet inspiration.
That thing that gets one out of bed in the morning and spending vast amounts of money on film, chemicals and paper.
I actually feel at the moment that The Muse, has packed her bags and gone on holiday with the other Muses.
Yep, no sausages, not a single one - to-wit, I picked up a really nice Gitzo CF monopod and Novoflex ballhead back in March, to use as a little extra help when using the SWC/M and you know what, apart from being cleaned and greased, they have sat there waiting.
For my Mojo has gone. 
There is no lead in my pencil. 
I am as dead as a Norwegian Blue.

Certainly, this rather perplexing state of affairs can be ridden through - I have been there and have advised others also on how to get through it. 
This usually amounts to: 

Get out there

Try a different camera

Limit yourself to a single lens

Stop moaning, it happens to everyone

Y'know, chirpy stuff along those lines. 
Does it ever work? 
Well maybe sometimes. 
I know for me it has.
I also know it is something I have to ride myself - the Bronco Of Despair is snorting; its foam-flecked mouth grimacing a terrible, toothy 'Git Ahn!'
I have no choice but to climb aboard and hold on tight till the Bronco is spent.

Because it is like that. It's emotionally distressing. You question everything.
I have even stopped looking at secondhand gear which is unheard of.
I normally spend my life seeing - looking at pictures I will never take in the sound knowledge that such visual tomfoolery will in the end be of benefit to compositional skills. 
Looking is learning.
However even that side of me has gone.
My eyes are as dead as a sharks eyes.

I have to say in my defence that there are at the moment two things which haven't helped. 
The first is DIY. 
11 windows and 3 doors, all coated in their remarkable Victorian lead and linseed ground and then carefully decorated in a sky blue linseed paint. AND THEN, fecked around with by subsequent post-War generations. 
Ah jings, how ghastly is acrylic paint! It turns to shit and says: 
"Go on, have a go if you're hard enough. You've a hell of a job on if you decide to take all this back to the wood."
So what did I decide to do?
Yep and it is still ongoing.
I am repainting with linseed paint by the way and learning craft skills of a different sort, however it takes time - shed-loads, like every weekend and day off since the start of April.

The other thing is a PVD.
Detailed here before, a year in, despite the exhortations of my local Optician, it really doesn't seem to be getting any better.
"It's amazing," he said, "one day it will just clear. Your brain will have learned to deal with the swirly mistiness and everything will become crystal clear!"
Well nearly a year later, my brain is certainly taking its time. 
I can see, but it is more akin to looking through random lenses - Zeiss Distagon one minute and then next Yaochong Super Effect Lens.
Not much fun actually, because it limits what I look at and how I see it. 
I cannot background process composition because I am having to make sense of almost everything.

Add in to the mix, many years of playing in bands and deafening, care-free, non-thinking about hearing protection which has resulted in a constant whistling in my right ear which never leaves me, and it is no surprise my brain is having a hard time keeping up.


Phil Rogers, Dundee, Hasselblad 500C/M, 150mm Sonnar
It's Deeper Than We Thought


Thinking about this state of affairs and how absolutely dead I feel about something which has occupied a large part of my adult life has made me think that photography can do strange things to a person.
I think it might well be more than just a pleasurable hobby.

I go through sloughs with writing and making music, but even in the midst of them, the feeling of absolute null is never quite as bad as this. 
I remember back in the early 2000's having the same feeling about photography and it lasted for over a year. 
Certainly I was younger then - I think I can work my way through it quicker now, but it is a weird feeling.

It's not as if I've stopped buying AP for a few weeks or started to completely ignore the fact that BBC4 actually have a photography programme on, which I should be watching.
No, it's a strange one.
It's like my own personal imprint; my production and editorial department, have packed their bags and gone off to join the Muses on the Costa . . . 
Everything has gone.
I take my cameras out, look at them, enjoy their heft, run through the shutter speeds and carefully pack them away again.
I've boxes full of film and paper to use.
It's just that I can't.

I'll get through it though. I have before and I will again.
Lack of artistic inspiration runs like a rich seam of ghastliness through every creative discipline
It can last weeks, hours or years, sometime lifetimes, but to me this is a temporary hitch.
It will require time, effort, TLC and patience.
Oh and LOVE.
I'll get there.
It'll be hard, but I will.

Oh and I very nearly knocked FogBlog on the head last month. 
There seemed no point - hardly any readers and those that do, having to put up with lengthy diatribes about ephemeral musings.
Yep, nearly got the V.E.T. in.
But then, this morning I think, well, that would be just stupid - I've been writing this for 9 years now, which has involved from me and you, commitment
It would be a shame to administer euthanasia when it has only got a broken toe.
So, we'll keep going - and thank you for keeping going with me.
Writing this hones other compositional skills.

What am I like? 
Just a blunt object that needs to be honed in many ways - nearing the beyond-the-midpoint of 'Fecking hell, this is it!'; realising that life is precious and to be appreciated every day.
That light is actually made from the same stuff.

I started this at 4.30AM - it's now nearly 6.30 and the morning light has changed from a soft ice-cream glow, to a be-shadowed blanketing light. letting shafts of sun through into this normally deep Winter Glen-like outlook. 
It's wonderful
Oh to have the time to be awakening by a rushing river, as the suffuse smells of damp foliage and earth start to warm, and (like the best curry spices when heated) overwhelm the senses as you set up your tripod and await that palmful of inspiration from Mother Nature herself.

See, I am getting there already.

Over and oot - take care and thanks AS ALWAYS for reading,
I'll leave the last word to a postcard I have owned for a few decades. 
It belonged to my Aunt and made her laugh and it makes me laugh too.
Pure British post-War humour par excellence.



Monday, April 19, 2021

Übermensch

Morning folks - y'see, there I was with the germ of an idea for a post, and I started, and got a title and everyfink, and then I continued expounding until all I had was a page full of words and myself, tied up in unreadable nonsense.
Goodness it was long and dull, and I got to the point whereby I thought, I really can't get myself out of this corner I've painted myself into.
So what did I do? 
Yep, chopped it all out and started again. 
(It had taken me bloody weeks too).

I like the title though, don't you?

Here's a little snippet from der Wiki:

In his 1883 book Thus Spoke Zarathustra (German: Also sprach Zarathustra), Nietzsche has his character Zarathustra posit the Übermensch as a goal for humanity to set for itself. The Übermensch represents a shift from otherworldly Christian values and manifests the grounded human ideal. It is a work of philosophical allegory, with a similar structure to the Gathas of Zoroaster/Zarathustra.

And with that title came this picture . . . not that it has anything to do with grounded human ideals.

It was taken around the back of Duncan Of Jordanstone College Of Art, a couple of years back.
Camera was a Hasselblad 500C/M and a 60mm Distagon, on I think Ilford HP5, developed in Pyrocat-HD.
I don't know what mentor and surrogate father-figure Joseph McKenzie would have made of it, but I wish I'd had the balls and the eyes to present something like it back in the 1980s'.

Why I think it suits the title I have no idea - maybe it's my deep subconscious at work. 
Anyway, in hindsight, I really should have taken the legs home.


Übermensch 1
Hasseblad 500 C/M, 60mm Distagon, FP4+

The splashy stuff and writing are as a result of me resting the lens hood against a window and focusing on the legs - there's something about reflection photos taken this way that adds an air of dreaminess to an already unreal scene. 
Thank goodness it was just a wired safety door and not double-glazed. 
Double glazing ruins most reflection shots.
Hmmm - Übermensch - Beyond Man.

Whilst not as photogenic as the legs, the title also brings this picture to mind.


Übermensch 2


The above could be a file snapped on a phone, but it isn't.
It's Hard Data - exposed silver halide on a polyester base, printed in a darkroom on resin coated paper. 

Snapped from a bus, on a dark, wet Winter's night with a Nikon F, that moment is now out in the world.
A private observation becomes tangible, physical.

The negative exists in a file, in a folder, on a shelf; the print in a box.

I can hold that strip of negatives in my hand, taking them out carefully and print them. 
When I use film and make prints, by chemical process, I bring light and time into being. 

That point in my life when I took that photograph is cemented into emulsion.

When I started thinking about this it quickly became very weird indeed:

I have stopped time

Pulled a piece of the universe away from its fabric.

Maybe it's no surprise that indigenous peoples feared the camera because they thought it would steal their soul.

I photograph you at a moment in time and make that part of you, then, into a physical representation of you in a print.
The print is the child of the negative.
The negative is another version of you because you will never be that version of yourself again.
That version of you, captured, exists; but unlike say a reflection in a pool, it has become an object that transcends the momentary.

You could argue that the image fixed in emulsion is truly unreal

Even without the translation process of printing, negatives are strangely beautiful objects.

I enjoy looking at them in their own right.
I like the way that (at the right angle and with the right light behind them) you can see a ghostly brown-grey positive image. 
I like the fact that they have to be handled carefully, and cherished really, like delicate children.

Hmmm - Übermensch - Beyond Man. 
Hmmm - Jenseits der Zeit - Beyond Time.

Talking of which.
The negative and the print of this exist. 
 

Stranger In Town
© W. Eugene Smith / Magnum Photos - All rights reserved


They're not data in the cloud, they're physical; beyond binary 1's and 0's, a human has taken materials and not only torn a piece from the fabric of the Universe, but also turned them into something that goes way beyond their mere physicality.
This photograph, whilst obviously old (1942 actually) transcends time. 
It speaks eloquently and across the ages, to all.
Who hasn't, at least once in their lives, felt like this?
Stranger In Town.
Übermensch.


I'll leave the last word to another from my old mate Eugene Smith. 
Possibly the finest photograph ever taken in my eyes.
As full of grace, power, emotion, skill, craft and beauty as anything ever produced by anyone ever.



Nun Waiting For Survivors - Andrea Doria 1956
© W. Eugene Smith / Magnum Photos - All rights reserved


It might have been set-up as he was wont to do at times, however I am not sure of that. 
It speaks in spades, communing emotion way beyond the event and beyond time itself.
I've looked at this image hundreds of times and yet every time my eyes are drawn to the beauty and poise of the Nun, and then to the small bear in her hand, and I am moved. Moved beyond it's reality as a mere photograph.
To tears.
A translator to the life beyond, caught so very briefly in a deeply human and humane moment.
Beautiful.
Almost eternal.

And that's it - you can start stroking your whispy, lockdown, humanities teacher, proto-beard and go Hmmmmmmm.

Over and out - photography next time, and lots of it, and I might not even shut-up.

Beam Us Up Scotty!

P.S. - I latterly discovered a nice little article about the meaning of the word, or meanings of the word - hey, Quantum Philosophy!
You can find it here.